Somebody's Heine' is crowding my icebox

Day off tomorrow mother fuckers!
Heineken and cookies to celebrate.
Alriiiiiight /Quagmire

I will walk on water, and you will catch me if I fall

So, it's Monday again. I must say that 6am does not agree with me, and I don't think it ever will. However, aside from that the day went alright. Did my steak count, complete inventory, put an assload of stuff away, then had soup while I waited for the lunch time rush. Turns out there wasn't much of a rush, which is fine by me. Did up some invoices, put some more stuff away, called in some orders and headed home. I think I'm getting the hang of things for the most part. I've got bruises and scrapes all over my arms, but I can live with that, since I got my tips for last week, 46 dollars, oh yeah! Plus, only one more day till I get a day off.

Oh, and I was able to watch my movie Sunday morning before playing hockey, I'm sure you were all concerned. Just wanted to put your minds at ease. I hope your Monday went well.

everytime I breathe, everytime I try to leave.

So I worked today, and it seems as though my Buffalo plans have fell through, as I can't get ahold of the dude I was going to go with. Oh well. No loss I suppose. Not sure what do with the rest of my day though. I may rent a movie (anchorman) and pick up a sixer and sit on my ass for the rest of the day/night. Well this entry sucked, I'll update later with something, I swear.

Update: Picked up my movie and beer, and it now turns out I MAY be heading to Buffalo afterall.

Update 2: Ok, it's now 2am, just got back from Buffalo. It was good times, and I may be heading back again in October. My life is too exciting for words. Goodnight.

It's a wonderful day in the neighbourhood..

Today was a fairly good day me thinks. Didn't have to be at work until 8, got my own keys to pretty much everything in the building, including my office (oh my!), did some inventory, sent out a shipment, worked lunch, met with one of our main suppliers, then placed a couple of orders all by my lonesome. Even took a couple of phonecalls. It's still weird hearing "Sean, line one please, Sean line one" over the PA system though. Cleaned up a bit in the beer fridge and I was headed for home. It will be pretty much the same tomorrow, though we have a few more shipments coming in. I'm feeling much more confident about the whole thing today for some reason. I didn't break for lunch though, so I'm starrrrrving, gotta go eat. Bye now.

the only constant was the constant reminder he'd never change

Day off tomorrow, fuck yeah motherfuckers.
Today went fairly well, I think. Tomorrow I shall sleep in (mmm) and then head to the bank to switch my account over to the new branch, pay off my mom's visa bill, and if I'm feeling ambitious, apply for a visa of my own. Oh, and this Saturday I may be heading down to Buffalo again. Fun times. Other than that, I'd just like to relax, then have a nice long sleep.

Don't take me up, I'll just fall down

I am one tired man.
The new job has been consuming most of my time lately. That, and sleeping. I'm getting the hang of some things, and a few other things are a little slower to catch on, slowly but surely getting the hang of it though. I guess. I kind of flipflop between thinking "hey, I'll get this, no problem" and "no way I'll be able to handle all this". But who knows.
Tomorrow is the last day for Ross, the guy who's job I'm taking over, which means I'll be in the hands of the big head honcho, Francois, and that will be a little more intimidating, but hopefully things will continue to go fairly smoothly. But enough about me, how are you?

I feel summer creeping in, and I'm tired of this town again

No long, rambling post about work today. Too tired for that. I will say that 5am is an hour of the day I could live without. Kitchen work = fun, paperwork = not so fun.
It stormed pretty violently tonight, with large amounts of rain, lightning and tornado warnings. For some reason I've always loved thunderstorms. There's something so violent, and yet beautiful and peaceful about them. I ordered pizza for everyone tonight. So good.

Unfortunately, I have to work tomorrow as well. Boooooo.

Day one: over my head

My head feels like it's going to explode. I'm not sure whether it's from information overload or because I'm missing my caffine. Went in this morning at 8, made some sandwiches for some free promotional lunches, all fine and dandy seeing as that's what my old job mostly consisted of. But then the information overload began. I'm going to have a whole lot of responsibilties and a whole lot of things to learn in the coming weeks. It was like all of this information flying by my head at hyper speed, and me trying to catch as much of it as I can and having fairly limited success. I have a vague understanding of things so far, but it will all take awhile to get used to it. I think I'll be able to handle it eventually though, and most of the staff was very friendly as well, so that helps. Tomorrow I'm in at 6 am to get as much training as I can, I suppose. That will not be enjoyable, but I better get used to it. 6 am will be the norm on Monday mornings. Free lunch of your choice is also a welcomed bonus, and having my own office (sort of). Plus no dress code for me. Score. We'll see how I feel about all of this tomorrow. Enough rambling from me.

In closing, here is my puppy looking confused as always.

don't look back in anger, I heard you say

Today was my last day at work. Tomorrow I head in to the new job and help my uncle out with some stuff. I won't be starting my official duties/learning until Monday. At least I don't think. They seem to like keeping me in the dark about these things.
I don't think I'll miss it, despite spending the better part of the last 7 or 8 years working there off and on. And while the new job seems rather intimidating, I am looking forward to the challenge and hoping that perhaps it will help me feel like a grown up(like that'll ever happen).

On a sidenote, I created myself another blog strictly for my 'writing', so as to not crowd this one up with it. Ok, that's not true. It's to give myself a false sense of importance and out of sheer boredom. Welcome to my life.

maybe there's a bit of me waiting for a bit of you, baby

The aforementioned job has been accepted, and I have handed in my notice at my current place of employment. I start Monday. I may be in on Friday to get a head start because 1) the guy I'm replacing finishes on Tuesday, and 2) the other guy who was going to teach me what to do is leaving on vacation Monday afternoon. So who's going to show me the ropes? I have no idea.

In other news, I'm bored out of my mind. Someone amuse me. Please. It's really quite easy. I may watch Garden State if there's nothing else to do.
Oh yeah, I'm going lend my mom 5k so she can pay off her visa bill, then I'm going to put 3k (my max) into an RRSP. Here's to hoping for an early retirement. Or something.

For your time, here is Kitty chillin' in the bathtub:

as the world turns

So I went with my uncle today to the restaurant, and was supposed to meet up with Tom (semi lower level management type), and Francois, a big head honcho guy shows up as well. Intimidating? Yes, especially since I wasn't even sure what type of job I was interviewing for.

Turns out, its a fairly big time job. I'd be taking inventory of everything the restaurant needs, from paper towel in the washroom to food to booze for the bar, as well as helping out in the kitchen. Tom told me it's not as tough as it sounds, but this would be a big jump for me. They didn't even ask for a resume, just a few basic questions about myself, and my experience, and pretty much took my uncle's word on me being responsible and trustworthy. The job is mine if I want it, and I have until Monday to decide.

This is all very sudden, and on one hand, its a great opportunity for me, seeing as I have pretty much no college/university. There's room to advance and network with a new group of people. On the other hand, I can see this being quite overwhelming, going from a small, family business to a big time restaurant with a whole load of new responsibilities that I've never dealt with before.

Oi, so confused. I know that I need a change, but I also want to make sure that this is something I can do, and do well, and not bring my uncle's reputation down.

Seany, you've gots some thinkin' to dooo.

close your eyes

As per Krissy's request, some brand new pics.
1 I need a shower, and shave, and a haircut, but what can ya do?
2 me pondering whether I should post these are not
3 Pepper says "what's up y'all?"

My interview is now tomorrow. Oh dear.

think outside the bun

Ok. USB cable is in my possession and everything is running smoothly.
Also, I may be getting a new job. Sweet mother of god I hope so. Apparently my uncle mentioned me to his boss awhile ago, since we worked together for a few years, and the boss asked about bringing me in for an interview of some kind. I most definitely need a change, and a raise in pay wouldn't hurt.

Also, this is funny. (warning, boobies)

D'oh!

So, I bought a new digital camera.
My first. Hooray.
However, there seems to be a missing USB cable, so now I have to go back and hope they have one for me.
Now you all must wait for pretty pictures of me. You poor people.

Letter to myself

The funeral is at dawn, but not before the longest night you've ever known, and the realization that nothing will ever be the same. And that things were never really the way you thought they were. It's going to be hard to take, but you've got to take it somehow. The same way you have every other day, because sometimes life's all lemons and no lemonade.

It's quarter past three and you're wide awake, I know. Afraid to sleep and dream that same dream again, knowing it'll never come true, and that it will never stop. But this will be the day you get over it. This is the day you bury it in the corner under those old letters. This is the day you start again.

So don't you dare give me that look again, you can't pin this on me. There's no amount of planning, no words you could've said. Nothing's going to change until you change yourself first. So heads up, and take it home one last time, and never think of it again, because sometimes life's just lemons, and the things that got away.

lazy days

So here's what I did with my day off.

..
Yeah, fuck all. I watched 25th hour and some soaps. I'm so lame. I swear I have some motivation lurking out there somewhere. Honestly. What are you looking at?!


------
I'm hit
But there ain't no time to bleed
I'm a bad son
And I can't swallow this disaster
Not anymore than I could before
I keep trying to let it fall
Yet I'm falling back down to her
Time and time again
The hours are losing their minutes
So I hang on for one more day, once again

Yes it's true

I played hockey today and completely exhausted. So worth it though.
I tried making porkchops with mushroom sauce and assorted veggies with rice for dinner, it didn't turn out as well as I had hoped, but I will most certainly try again.

I believe I have the day off tomorrow, another 3 day weekend. I am so awesome.

Also, Blue Rodeo is great. "Lost Together" is like, the perfect love song. And on the other side of things "Hasn't Hit Me Yet" is a great 'I've been ditched' song. Seriously, check 'em out if you haven't already.

Oh, and I got my new passport finally. I am now able to travel the globe, who's having me over first?

This entry is fantastic, you and I both know it.

I'm not bulletproof

Ever felt like after giving everything into someone or something, that you're left with nothing in the end?

Ever had someone say they loved you, and that if nothing else they'd always be your best friend, only to have them disappear off the face of the earth?

I've always thought of myself as an eternal optimist (for the most part) and of course a hopeless romantic, and at the same time apathetic to the point that when my optimism turns out to be wrong, it doesn't bother me in the slightest.
Only once in recent memory has the above been untrue, and I can't quite shake it. Yet, I also feel like I'm ready to move on and leave it all behind. I just feel like there's some unfinished business, and I suppose some 'closure' is needed. Sorry for being vague.. details are available upon request?

On a side note, I suppose the apathy stems from years of suppressing most any emotion, if you're never too high, you can never get too low was my take on it. I'm sure my various insecurities have a part in it as well, but what can ya do? There was more to this but I've completely lost my train of thought.
[/emo blogging]

Now if you'll excuse me, I'm sunburned and have some drinking to attend to.

Comatose

Imagine
Standing at your bedside
Looking down at your own closed eyes
Alive or dead is the unknown

The sun slides through the dusty window
But no light will brighten this scene
You're frozen in a gaze that you can't shake
Watching yourself waste away

A single white sheet holding you in place
Motionless, you try to stir
But no reaction comes
Trying to wake but you fouled it up again
Backed up and backed off
Now afraid this mirror reflection is the end
________________________________________

Now for something completely different, I will post some things that could be considered guilty pleasures, but I feel no shame!

- Soap operas. Yeah that's right. Days and B&B
- The O.C.
- Wrestling, more specifically, Japanese wrestling
- Backstreet Boys - "incomplete" (ok, that one I'm ashamed of)
- Kelly Clarkson
- Junk food. Lots and lots of junk food.

I may think of more later. Toodles.

taking care of business

So after an extremely long, and lethargic 5 day weekend, tomorrow I must head back to work. I am in complete holiday mode and it is going to suck immensely. Yet, the week will be half over so I guess it won't be so bad.
Anyways, back to the point, 5 days and did nothing at all of note except for buying some dvds and Sunday's granny adventure. Sometime soon I shall make an entry of some relevence, I swear. That said, I need to go take a shower so I'll leave you with this; My mom and sister are currently at the Molson amphitheatre seeing the Backstreet Boys, and diet coke with lime is actually decent. Bye now.