well alright then.

And tonight things crashing to a hault.
This week most certainly has sucked large amounts of anus.

The fine art of falling apart

Sometimes I think too much. Ok, pretty much all the time.
I go over things far too many times, in far too many situations.
Sometimes I don't give myself much of a chance, and sometimes I give myself too much of one.

Currently, it's a little bit of both, I'm afraid.

At the beginning I thought "no chance in hell". No way, no how. Turns out, I had a fairly good shot, and in fact, it seemed all but guaranteed to go well. I started feeling good about it all, looking forward, no stress, no worries. While the future seemed uncertain, I didn't fear it, and in fact, looked forward to it.
Along the way however, I ignored certain signs. Well, maybe not ignored, but put aside, and certainly overlooked.
Those signs are now all too clear.. and real. This little fantasy I built up in my head comes crashing back down. This does not mean I will be giving up, most certainly not. I will however sulk, and drink myself silly, and briefly feel sorry for myself. But life goes on, and who knows, maybe things will end up alright, or falter for the better. I'm not counting on it, but here's to hoping.



Yes, slightly melodramatic, but it amuses me, so deal with it. Now if you'll excuse me, I have a bottle of rum with my name on it.

Half finished bottles of inspiration lie like ghosts in my room

Well hello there fellow bloggers.
Life is going along smoothly, I must say.
I'm beginning to take over new duties at work, which will in turn give me my desired raise.
The bad news is, I may be addicted to work, or in the best case scenario, I simply have no life outside of work.
Being that this past week was Good Friday & Easter and whatnot, things were very slow. I had Thursday off, most of Friday off, and Saturday afternoon off. I had no idea what to do with myself, and actually asked if they were absolutely certain they didn't want me to work Saturday night. I am so sad.
Me and one of the managers ended up going to work at about 10pm anyways, just to meet up with a couple of people and basically get out of the house. And yes he's basically in the same state I am.

The Matt Good show was on Wednesday as well. My lady friend admitted that she kind of didn't want to come, but ended up having a good time. We even ran into someone who used to work with us. All in all a fairly good night, and things continue to go along quite well, but I won't bore you with details this time around.

One of these days I may have something interesting to say. But I make no such promises.

update ahoy

Me and the girl are unofficially official, or something like that.

Matt Good show on Wednesday, and I cannot wait.

As well on Wednesday I will hopefully get a new cell phone plan and not have to worry about my minutes running out.

I'm hoping this will be a slow work week. I'm totally exhausted.

Then again, I've been staying out too late and drinking too much, so perhaps I'm to blame.


Perhaps.