misery loves company (and so do I)

I haven't used this thing in awhile, obviously, but I don't think anyone reads this, so I guess that's not relevent.
Is it weird that I've actually considered seeing a therapist.
Not that I'd actually go through with it. But still, not that I think there's something especially wrong with me.
I'm just never happy. I'm functional. I get through the day. But still, I feel like a big open wound that's never healed. And hell, I feel like a giant drama queen just saying that.
And now I wonder what good it would do, I can't even really open up to myself, let alone someone else.
I need a fuckin' vacation.

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This is my beginning
This is me tired of swimming
against a current
Taking me nowhere